Work Randoms: Part 7

OH EM GEE!

My Chocolate Smoothie looks so delicious today! He put his smooth, dark, silky chocolate skin against more than a few bright colors today. He looks so sexy. Man, I want him so bad. Unfortunately, my FHC has me on a pretty strong lock down.

Especially for these past few days! It's been AWESOMEISH! I mean, we've been talking, laughing and just have gone back to how it was when we first started talking. You know how things are THE BEST in the beginning.

I so want to take things further with Smoothie, but for some reason, I can't seem to allow myself to take those steps. I feel so obligated, but unlike how I used to feel...it doesn't feel like a negative thing anymore. I'm starting to get into my feelings so much with FHC (in a good way!) I'm starting to feel again the way I felt when we first started back talking! I simply cannot WAIT until he gets here in January. I am gonna be just so happy, I'm not gonna be able to contain myself...at the same time, I feel like there is so much with Smoothie that I can have...together! We can have our first times together. First marriage, first child, first REAL love. You know? FHC has kids and he's been married before so, even though he makes me feel otherwise, I feel like just another one...

I kind of just want to date them BOTH and see what happens. I just want to fall in love and be happy for the rest of my life. That's the most important thing to me. I want to have a family life with a faithful husband that wants me for me and is well prepared to spoil me with love and honesty. Is that too much to ask for? I feel like I have two guys ready and willing to give me them both, but it's up to me to decide on which one will make it to being my King. I have so much love to give to someone that's worth it. It's not easily just given up, I want someone that feels like I'm worth the work to get to that level. I need a man that will show me how much he loves me and wants to give me the world. I want someone that will show me how much he loves me and can care less who else knows.

In other news,

I had lunch with QT today! Today was one of those genuine days where I didn't feel shy and like a little girl. We had the best conversation. He told me about some list that's going around with some chicks here where they made a top 10 of the male SMEs & someone told him that he's in the Top 5. He said that he responded "I don't know what y'all are talking about, if it ain't Noell, then I don't know who it is." LOL, I told him he is such a liar...I said "OH MY GOD! You did not say my name!" It was cute though!

That was a copy and paste entry from my 'randomness' blog I type while at work :)

xoxo, Noey. ♥