I've been wanting to blog about this ever since the day he passed, but I could never get myself together to sit down and type this out. My emotions have been up and down as the days have passed. I've been crying everyday. On the way to work, while I'm at work, on the home from work...even a couple days I cried myself to sleep. I'm still not 100%...AT ALL, but I didn't want to put it off for too long. I just actually watched a Michael Jackson tribute video that had me in tears (I'll post it below). So, I decided to go ahead and make a blog.
I know a lot of you are like "Noey, what the hell is wrong with you? He's just a celebrity, it's not like you knew him personally." That's all I've been getting from people...but folks don't understand. I just simply cannot imagine life without music...seriously. Music is life to me. It can help you get through some things. when you think you don't have the answer, a song can come on and get you to smiling with full blown confidence. Music has gotten me through EVERYTHING! Literally...
I grew up with Michael Jackson in my household. My mom was a true Michael Jackson fan, my Daddy most DEFINITELY is a Michael Jackson fan...diehard. I grew up as a Michael Jackson fan. I have RECORDS, cassette tapes, CDs...ya know? I've been to 4 of his concerts. I have a VHS tape of a concert I went to where people were fainting & crying all around me. I have YET to pop that in...I will totally break down watching that right about now.
Now guys, chill. I'm not suicidal and I'm not on Short Term at work or anything, I am just a pretty emotional person and there are certain things that I am very serious about. Music being one of them. It's apart of my life and if something happened on earth right now to where we could no longer listen to the radio, have stereo systems and CD players in our cars and homes...what would we do? What would you do? I mean, we have the internet...but what if we couldn't listen to music there either?
I can't try to make anyone feel my pain, but my blog is somewhere where I come to release my feelings and speak on my passions. Michael Jackson, I was passionate about & I still cannot fathom him being gone. Throughout the funeral, the memorial, the copy of the death certificate...throughout it all, this is still a surreal experience. 50 years old? It can't be true.
I am in tears as I type.
I feel privileged and lucky to have been able to live in the genre of Michael Jackson. I was only born in 1985, but I can say that most, if not all, of his music has been heard by my ears and I was lucky enough to see him perform...
R.I.P. MJ
I will always remember you and the effect you've had on my life! I will never forget you and I will be sure to inform my children of the wonderful love you gave to this world. You were a unique person and always seemed to love unconditionally. Words cannot express my undying sadness at this moment. I was soooo GEEKED about his upcoming tour. I was praying and hoping all the time that it would turn into a tour hitting Atlanta, I was SO going...
Noey, xoxo. ♥
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